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Blog #9- Nonsense

How’s everyone doing? I know it’s a crazy time, but we’re going to get through this together. Make sure to wear your mask and be kind to one another.

It’s crazy to me that I had my blog posts up until this month all planned out and then the pandemic happened and everything just changed. So sorry if this is ranbling but I figured this could just be sort of a catch up/ my thoughts.

I would have been writing to you about my time down the shore with my best friend and her family, but again, that didn’t happen.

So, first I’m back to work now. Have been for a little over a month. I certainly miss that time off, but I knew it wasn’t going to last forever. All I ask is, if you insist on going out during this pandemic, be kind, be patient, and wear a mask. Workers are just as hot and uncomfortable in the masks as you are, and store policies change, but don’t take it out on them please.

I am back to writing more again, so please continue to check out my articles when I get a chance to post them and thank you all for the support and to those who have read them. It means more to me than you know.

This is also a random thought, but do you ever wonder how present you are in other’s lives? How much they think of you. What made me think of this was my childhood crush came into my work the other day, reocgnized me in under my mask and my sweatiness, and said hi. Now, for me that made my entire weekend. I couldn’t stop thinking about it, but was it the same for him.

I wonder sometimes, do people still think of you after they talk to you or when they’re not with you? Did he still think of me when he left the store or was I the only one that was on a high the whole weekend?

Just a thought. Carry on with your day.

I miss concerts. I miss my friends and family. I miss going out to eat. I miss going to the movies, but I know that stuff will all be there when all of this is over.

I hope everyone is staying healthy and safe and being smart. Remember this isn’t a political issue. This isn’t about getting the economy back. This is about saving lives and the betterment of our future.

I love you all and talk to you next month. Hopefully, I’ll have something more interesting to talk about.

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Blog #7- Pomp And Circumstance

One year ago, today I graduated from college. I was on my way to adult life in pursuit of my dream job.

It was a happy day that I got to spend with my immediae family, friends, and classmates. I already missed Temple. I had a short two years there and, honestly, if it didn’t cost so much, I would have stayed longer.

I made some really good memories at Temple, including meeting my best friend, Ashley.

However, I didn’t realize that after this day, the pressure and realization that came after it.

I was an adult adult now and had no job in my field lined up and I was terrified. Many of my friends and classmates already knew what they were doing after graduation and I was going back to my part-time job.

I applied to many jobs between then and now. However, nothing seemed to fit. I got so many rejections and it really broke me down, especially when it was at companies that I had dreamed of working at-big names. I guess I was just shooting too high.

Then, when I did get a position, it didn’t work out for numerous reason, and I had to not write for them anymore, which broke me even more.

Don’t get me wrong, I have some positions that pay me and I enjoy, but it’s not like anything I thought.

I know everyone goes at their own pace and that I shouldn’t judge myself based on others, but it just hurts sometimes.

I look back at my life in this past year and I don’t have regrets, but I wish I had done more. Now, during these past few months, I have written a lot and explored some of my options, but right now is a time to just relax and not worry about those things.

Hopefully, this time next year, I will be writing this with a stable job/dream job in my field, whether it is here, New Yotk City, or wherever. I just hope I’m happy.

To all the 2020 graduates, congratulations! I’m sorry your graduation had to turn out like this, but you worked hard and this should fuel you to work hard. Best of luck and don’t get discouraged.

Everyone’s journey is completely different.

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Blog #6- I Didn’t Think I Could Love Another Pet

Happy Easter everyone! How are you all holding up in this quarantine? I am going a little stir crazy. Anyway, I’m bringing you another blog post today because it is my cat’s first adopt-iversary. Let me explain the title.

My family got my first cat, Ally, when I was about one years old. Even though I annoyed the heck out of her, she was my pet, my love, and the one thing that made me happy when nothing else could. I loved coming home to her everyday and kissing her and just talking to her like she was my sister.

Fast forward to 2018 and she was 20 years old. That’s a long time to have a cat in your life. She’s part of the family. When we had to put her down on August 4th, 2018, I was shattered. We lost one of my family members.

For while we had no pet, which I was fine with. We were still mourning our baby girl. Then, my mom told me that there was a cat up for adoption and I still wasn’t ready to give my heart away yet.

In comes Dewey. On April 12th, 2019, we adopted him and he made himself at home right away. At first, I was against the idea but once I saw him, I couldn’t ignore him.

He fit in right away and is now part of our family. One year later, and I know now that I needed another pey to fill the void. I will never forget Ally ever, but I needed another furry friend to get me through the bad days and make me smile when I get home.

So, I am so glad we decided to adopt you Dewey Nox. You are forever a part of our family. Happy one year adopt-iversary/6th birthday. We love you!