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Blog #9- Nonsense

How’s everyone doing? I know it’s a crazy time, but we’re going to get through this together. Make sure to wear your mask and be kind to one another.

It’s crazy to me that I had my blog posts up until this month all planned out and then the pandemic happened and everything just changed. So sorry if this is ranbling but I figured this could just be sort of a catch up/ my thoughts.

I would have been writing to you about my time down the shore with my best friend and her family, but again, that didn’t happen.

So, first I’m back to work now. Have been for a little over a month. I certainly miss that time off, but I knew it wasn’t going to last forever. All I ask is, if you insist on going out during this pandemic, be kind, be patient, and wear a mask. Workers are just as hot and uncomfortable in the masks as you are, and store policies change, but don’t take it out on them please.

I am back to writing more again, so please continue to check out my articles when I get a chance to post them and thank you all for the support and to those who have read them. It means more to me than you know.

This is also a random thought, but do you ever wonder how present you are in other’s lives? How much they think of you. What made me think of this was my childhood crush came into my work the other day, reocgnized me in under my mask and my sweatiness, and said hi. Now, for me that made my entire weekend. I couldn’t stop thinking about it, but was it the same for him.

I wonder sometimes, do people still think of you after they talk to you or when they’re not with you? Did he still think of me when he left the store or was I the only one that was on a high the whole weekend?

Just a thought. Carry on with your day.

I miss concerts. I miss my friends and family. I miss going out to eat. I miss going to the movies, but I know that stuff will all be there when all of this is over.

I hope everyone is staying healthy and safe and being smart. Remember this isn’t a political issue. This isn’t about getting the economy back. This is about saving lives and the betterment of our future.

I love you all and talk to you next month. Hopefully, I’ll have something more interesting to talk about.

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Blog #8- Oh, We’re Halfway There!

2020 is already half over. This has been the slowest fastest year ever. Honestly. Quarantine felt like years, but now looking back at it, we are almost cleebrating July 4th already and are in the midst of Summer.

This year will forever go down in history. Kobe, COVID-19, Black Lives Matter movement, murder hornets, etc. 2020 will not be a year we will forgot for a long time.

Right now, I shouldn’t really be writing this blog. I would have been writing in a few days on my thoughts of the Harry Styles concert I was scheduled to go to on the 26th, but because the world has stopped right now, that won’t be happening until next September now.

This Summer, year, and decade was supposed to be amazing, but at the same time maybe it was what we all needed. Some time to stop, slow down, reflect on how precious life is, how we can do better.

Many people think this whole thing is over, but it’s not. We’re stuck in the middle of it. More cases are popping up, more rallies are happening. We are slowly changing the world.

While the world is in the midst of chaos please, listen to Harry Styles, and treat people with kindness. Going back to work, it is crazy to see how people treat others. Just be kind and make someone’s day.

We will get through this. Hopefully, 2021 will be the roaring 20’s we’ve all hoped for. Just promised me on New Year’s Eve this year, instead of screaming Happy New Year, we will all go outside and scream “Jumanji” so we can end this madness.

I hope everyone is staying safe. Lots of love and light.

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Blog #7- Pomp And Circumstance

One year ago, today I graduated from college. I was on my way to adult life in pursuit of my dream job.

It was a happy day that I got to spend with my immediae family, friends, and classmates. I already missed Temple. I had a short two years there and, honestly, if it didn’t cost so much, I would have stayed longer.

I made some really good memories at Temple, including meeting my best friend, Ashley.

However, I didn’t realize that after this day, the pressure and realization that came after it.

I was an adult adult now and had no job in my field lined up and I was terrified. Many of my friends and classmates already knew what they were doing after graduation and I was going back to my part-time job.

I applied to many jobs between then and now. However, nothing seemed to fit. I got so many rejections and it really broke me down, especially when it was at companies that I had dreamed of working at-big names. I guess I was just shooting too high.

Then, when I did get a position, it didn’t work out for numerous reason, and I had to not write for them anymore, which broke me even more.

Don’t get me wrong, I have some positions that pay me and I enjoy, but it’s not like anything I thought.

I know everyone goes at their own pace and that I shouldn’t judge myself based on others, but it just hurts sometimes.

I look back at my life in this past year and I don’t have regrets, but I wish I had done more. Now, during these past few months, I have written a lot and explored some of my options, but right now is a time to just relax and not worry about those things.

Hopefully, this time next year, I will be writing this with a stable job/dream job in my field, whether it is here, New Yotk City, or wherever. I just hope I’m happy.

To all the 2020 graduates, congratulations! I’m sorry your graduation had to turn out like this, but you worked hard and this should fuel you to work hard. Best of luck and don’t get discouraged.

Everyone’s journey is completely different.

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Blog #6- I Didn’t Think I Could Love Another Pet

Happy Easter everyone! How are you all holding up in this quarantine? I am going a little stir crazy. Anyway, I’m bringing you another blog post today because it is my cat’s first adopt-iversary. Let me explain the title.

My family got my first cat, Ally, when I was about one years old. Even though I annoyed the heck out of her, she was my pet, my love, and the one thing that made me happy when nothing else could. I loved coming home to her everyday and kissing her and just talking to her like she was my sister.

Fast forward to 2018 and she was 20 years old. That’s a long time to have a cat in your life. She’s part of the family. When we had to put her down on August 4th, 2018, I was shattered. We lost one of my family members.

For while we had no pet, which I was fine with. We were still mourning our baby girl. Then, my mom told me that there was a cat up for adoption and I still wasn’t ready to give my heart away yet.

In comes Dewey. On April 12th, 2019, we adopted him and he made himself at home right away. At first, I was against the idea but once I saw him, I couldn’t ignore him.

He fit in right away and is now part of our family. One year later, and I know now that I needed another pey to fill the void. I will never forget Ally ever, but I needed another furry friend to get me through the bad days and make me smile when I get home.

So, I am so glad we decided to adopt you Dewey Nox. You are forever a part of our family. Happy one year adopt-iversary/6th birthday. We love you!

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Blog #5- No One Likes You When You’re 23

Well, I am not longer feeling 22, I am however, happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time. Haha.

As I celebrate my 23rd birthday today, I want to reflect on the past year. I met some of my favorite “Big Brother” contestants, graduated from college, saw Derek Hough, the JONAS BROTHERS, and Shawn Mendes live, applied to be on “Big Brother,” got a new cat, went down the shore, saw “Mean Girls Live,” and spent the year with family and friends.

Even though we are stuck in this weird time right now, I hope that when this whole thing blows over, and I can go outside today, that 23 will the year that I am happy. It doesn’t matter if I don’t accomplish all of my goals, I have my whole life to to do that. I just want to be happy.

So, hopefully, people will like me now that I’m 23.

Hope everyone is staying safe and healthy during this time. Cheers!

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Blog #5- The Jonas Brothers Comeback

One year ago today, I was sitting on my couch when Joe Jonas tweeted “S***=together” and then the brothers announced “Sucker” and their comeback as a band.

I am not afraid to admit I sobbed on my couch for a good ten minutes, texted my brother, and immediately felt joy and happiness.

Immediately, we agreed that we would see them live no matter what it took because we never had before.

“Sucker” was such a smash hit and is one of my favorite all-time Jonas Brothers songs.

I truly believe their break up was the best thing that happened to them. They are happier, excited, and producing amazing music all while being a family.

I may never get to meet some of my favorite artists, so to Joe, Nick, and Kevin Jonas, I just want to say thank you from all of the Jonas Brothers fans for breaking up and coming back. Cheers to many many more years.

I will forever go back and ride that rollercoaster with you.

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Blog #4- I’m Talking ‘Bout Love

Well another Valentine’s Day has come and gone without being in a relationship.

That’s honestly, not the the worst thing in the world. Right now, I am so wrapped up in work and writing and stuff that I would barely have time for a boyfriend.

I believe in God’s timing and His plan. He can see what is truly best for me in this moment and is holding something back for me that will be given to me at just the right moment.

I’m going to be 23 next month. I know. I’m old right? And I’ve never been in a relationship. Might sound odd to some but who cares?

Who needs a boyfriend when you have the love and support of the best friends and family anyone could ask for.

Also, self love is so important. Take a night for just you. Cozy up with a bittle of wine, a good movie, and a bunch of snacks. Or do a spa day, read a book. Whatever it is that makes you happy or relaxes you, do it. You need to take care of yourself and love yourself before you can love anyone else.

I know that’s hard but look in the mirror and tell yourself you love you. Do it!

So if you’re feeling down for not celebrating Valentine’s Day with a significant other, don’t be. You have plenty of love around you. Make a strangers day and compliment them. Spread love and kindness.

Your time will come. My time will come. Have faith in timing.

I love you all and thank you for all pf the support!

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Life is Weird- Blog #3

Life is crazy, everyone.

You pray for things and hope for them and then when you get the chance to experience it, it doesn’t work out or it does and you can’t tackle it.

Since graduating I’ve been applying to jobs in my field and kept getting rejected time and time again.

Maybe I was aiming too high for companies with too big of names. But I saw my peers getting those jobs and felt bad about myself.

I would get rejected or be ghosted or make it through the first round, and nothing more. Now that I had opportunities and companies that want me, I can’t fulfill what they want me to do and had to decline.

I had to make a decision. Do I stay at my part-time job that gives me a steady paycheck and stability for my future or do I quit that job and take on the freelance positions that want me?

It’s crazy that when you have an opportunity you’ve been dreaming of right in front of your face, you have to not take it.

But again. I believe all of this is happening for a reason. Maybe someday on the future, I’ll be ready to go full freelance, but for now I have to save up for that full-time job and my future.

God has a plan for me and is guiding me down a path that I can’t see. I’m ready to take it on if it means I get my dream job.

Never stop chading your dream and do what’s best for you in that moment.

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My 2019 Favorite Songs

2019 was a great year for music. I made a playlist of all of the songs I couldn’t get enough of this year. I hope you enjoy.

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Alone on Christmas Day- Blog #2

Hi everyone,

I’m back with my second blog post just in time for the holidays and I’m writing about a subject that is very relatable and has come up in conversations with friends recently: being single for the holidays.

You’re sitting there on Christmas surrounded by your family and loved ones but they’re all there with their significant others and you’re not.

It’s something we’ve all gone through at least once… or for some, every holiday.

You’ve never given a gift to a boyfriend/girlfriend or had a kiss on New Year’s Eve and it can be very hard for some.

But don’t let being single on Christmas get you down. There are actually a lot of benefits to not being attached during the holidays.

You can spend more time with your family. Christmas is time to spend time with the ones you love and your family is important. You may not always have them in your life. so value the time you do have.

You will save money on gifts. Of course, if you were in a relationship you would have to buy gifts for your SO on top of the other gifts you buy so by not having one, you have more money to spend on you.

You won’t have to answer the annoying question of “so where did you two meet?” or make sure your SO won’t be weirded out by your crazy family.

Don’t let seasonal depression get you down. The holidays are times to be happy. With or without someone by your side, you should enjoy this time of the year.

Happy holidays everyone!